Day 1
 

New thread- day 1. Threw away a huge expensive bag of it last night. Last few days I just smoked and ate and slept all day over and over. Felt wasted and unsatisfied and useless.
Prior to that I moderated sort of for a week- few days on and few days off. But ultimately I have to go 100% so here I go again. Day one is all aout the jonsing but at last I am functional.

Hi Windy! I'm glad you're here. I'm on day 18 and feel better every day, even though I have a long way to go. I totally feel you on the eating/sleeping/useless thing. It's amazing how we let it consume our lives and how miserable it makes us feel.
Anything in particular you feel like talking about? It's rainy here and i'm building some electronics so i'll be around the computer to help you through some of Day 1. Any plans? I know how scatterbrained you probably feel :(

Thanks! Congrats on day 18. you are right it does get better and better. When I did 7 months sober this year by the end I barely thought of it and was like0 it is so easy to quit! It is just these early weeks that it is hard.

Have you told anyone you are quitting? Did you get rid of your smoking devices/implements? Those two were really important for me.

This is the best decision you can take, Windy!
I am sure you don't want to waste anymore days of your life feeling the way you did.

You've already stopped! Now you just have to go trough those tough first week or two and you'll have the gift of sobriety again. Remember how good it felt ? It is amazing - actually - that is the best high you can have - getting high on life rather on pot.

Wish you good luck my friend!
Take care! :You_Rock_

We're here to encourage you, Windy. You've made a great choice - the drinking life leaves us empty and miserable. You can do it.

I am proud of you too Teo!! Thanks for reminding me of the sober high- I have this infinite craving in me to get high, to feel high, to feel elated. And I forget that I actually eventually feel much higher and better sober--- I have to ride out the cravings- I feel so low when I smoke. Such a weird thing. 30 years now of smoking .

I agree Windy, it is amazing how we can be so anxious to smoke and feel like it's the only way to feel pleasure, and then equally amazing how low it makes us feel when we're actually stoned.

Sorry, Windy - I forgot it's pot that's your issue, & I mentioned drinking. :)

Hi Windy! How are you feeling?

i have been clean of smoking for 8 months now.
after smoking everyday for about 12 years.

i feel so much better & more productive, i did have to deal with my anxiety another way but figured it out. i only had cravings for the first couple weeks but i would just do things to take my mind off of it. now i don't even think of it.

i did throw my whole stash away and all devices when i first decided to come clean

welcome to the forum sobrietyiskey :)

Windy - how are you going?

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Hi SobrietyIsKey :)

How did you deal with your anxiety? I've been weed free for 21 days today and the anxiety is the hardest part for me. I was having daily panic attacks after I quit, i'd never had them before. And the worst part was the constant surreal feeling that was making me freak out even more. It is lifting now, but I still experience it at some point everyday. Did you get that surreal feeling? I think it might be exacerbated by the anxiety. If so, when did it finally go away completely? I'm on FMLA leave, it was that bad. I've been doing breathing techniques, progressive muscle relaxation, listening to music created for relaxation, seeing my therapist.

Also, 8 months is awesome! That's so encouraging. I am so looking forward to being there.

Windy, where are you ??? We miss you . Its OK if you've slipped back - we've all done that at some time - me, many times, but the key is to stay connected and reach out again. You and teodor need to come and at least check in - we're here for you!

HC is right guys :)

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Checking in ... lasted more than a month without pot, then some things happened and I smoked more than later on some more and etc, was on and off.

Just smoked what I had left and going back to not smoking at all.
Thank you!

good to have you back Teodor :)
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welcome back, teodor !!! You Can Do It !!!

Great to see you back, Teodor!

Thank you for the warmth welcome!

I don't intend on stealing Windy's thread, but just a short info:

So today was Day 1 ... it passed, but!!!
I called the dealer in the evening, but he didn't come in the end.

I know that if he came, that I would have smoked.
Sooo ... what does that count for ? A relapse or what ?

I didn't smoked, but I would have if I had it on me.

So I don't know, it doesn't really feel like Day 1, more like cheating.

Thank you!

Teodor
I have been off this forum- smoking pot.
I missed your update. Where are you at?
I am smoking way too much and wanting to quit.

Welcome back Windy - you've quit before, you can do it again.
Pick a day one and go from there ? :)

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Same here to be honest.

same goes for you too Teo :)

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just get on back in the saddle - don't worry about tomorrow. Just do today right - that's all that matters right now. Come on, you guys. You'll feel much better in a week - grind out these first few tough days - you CAN do it !

thanks for the encouragement! I'll let you know how it goes. You are right it is only a few tough days and then so much easier. Have not got to day 1 yet but think I will very soon. how long I can go is another question. I will see how it goes.

Sounds like a big part of you is unsure that you can do this long term.
That's nonsense.

I've seen you rock sobriety WT and I have doubt you can do it again

some times I think it's better to make a day one rather than waiting for the right day - years can go past trust me.

Make a day one Windy :)

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Hi, I am new and on day 2.

hey Teodor are you on here?
Should we quit again?! How about it. I am sitting here stoned and not fulfilled at all by it. I tried to go sober two days ago and just caved half way through the day. the previous day I tried and made it till midnight.
I have been smoking a lot. I remember that the withdrawal is short lived. I just have to make the choice.
Teodor we could both have day one tomorrow?? I am kind of up for it . . . .