That tough lessons learnt the hard way can be passed on to others without the pain of experiencing it

That i dont have to do anything! I can lie in bed all day if i wanted. I choose not to.

I am grateful that i admitted i had a drink problem aged only 25. I am grateful that i can be fully aware for decades to come

Grateful that i can still feel, even if the emotions are negative

Grateful that im not perfect and not trying to be.; no one else is either.

Well said

That when i go to the gym i take it easy and its enjoyable
That i can cook home made food fairly well which keeps me healthy
Ben and Joss
Forgiveness and acceptance
Having no expectations, taking things as they come.

You doing great Dan

For quizzes
For eating out, trying new food
For moving around and certain excercises which combats pain
For the few serious side effects of the catalogue of drugs ive used, prescribed and unprescribed
Tobasco sauce!
For my back roller and other massages
Reading and laughing at hysterical british tabloid journalism

Grateful I am not a Syrian refugee on a overcrowded, leaky, disease ridden boat, abandoned and unwanted

Grateful that;
i got out of bed this morning
i have a little spare money now for self indulgence
im relaxing in a pub
that my parents care even if they havent been there or that there listening and communication skills are poor. Any percieved snubs to me are reaction to snubs ive made to them in past. grateful i want to make strides in moving on and that i will use therapy to do so.
if i control myself i control my destiny

recent bad news is reaffirming my commitment to look after myself
its better to learn from your own mistakes then others
My brother is giving me an opportunity to learn to deal with aggressive, controlling behaviour.
I can read and write.
I am learning about the bodies inflammatory response.

cooked breakfasts
art
dentist appointment tomorrow
walking, swimming, gym, cycling, football, badminton, boxing (if i was so inclined to actually do them!)
discovering a new band
reading history
memorising interesting facts!
i dont have to be solitary
helping others

i dont need my wisom teeth out
going to park
i work at studio which is free music practice

match of the day
dogs
looking forward to this cold going away!

learning world rhythms for drumset
i feel great after changing my diet to include anti-oxidant foods. No more feeling dead inside!
my aunt emailed me asking about how i am. i havent anwsered but maybe i will

listening to slow, morose music whilst surfing the web late at night, slipping on a familiarly warm coat of depression!

i can have a new different relationship with family. Associate with them but keep it straight forward and unemotional. It would be crass to think their is a close, loving relationship after a decade of a cold front.

can a mod please delete last two posts?(and this one!)

Bohemian night
I have a personal trainer
I am seeing a psychologist tomorrow for chronic pain management
ambient music
i have become a much better drummer in recent months
i have started a food diary, excercise diary