Stone I kept it a secret at work, as far as anyone knew I was on vacation, I had been back a week out of de-tox and let a co-worker know, he is behind me one hundred percent, and I felt a load lift off my shoulders, secrets are not healthy for a drunk like me.

Well, it's just left 9am here in the UK, I'm looking forward to finding out how you get on with the doc SR!

You and me both Paul!

Hi guys! 12.20 here now, I am seeing him in a couple of hours :)

Stonerat, I'm rooting for you. Your'e absolutely doing the right thing!!

My thoughts are with you Stonerat :).

Thanks BBV and gypsy :)

I have decided I don't like this new GP, I have no rapport with him.
To cut a long story short, he is referring me to a clinic for home detox and some sort of counselling/support.
The bad thing is, I don't know when it will happen and he wouldn't even give me a ball-park idea of how long I will be waiting to get in.
He wont prescribe anything to help as he wants the clinic to handle all that.

Right now, I am not too bothered-to me it is a huge thing to say I need help and I now know I will get it, it is not good to be left not knowing when it will happen but I can't afford to pay for private treatment so I have to go along with what I am offered.
I haven't fully thought out how I feel but I just wanted to post an update as so many kind people where thinking of me.
I don't expect it to take longer than a week or two to get treatment and I can cope with that, but I don't know for sure and that not knowing is hard.
I am still pretty upbeat though.
:)

In his defense he may have to find out when they have an opening, I had to wait like 3 weeks before I got into de-tox, for me it was a relief to know that some thing was going to happen. Hang in there, it will come, just remember to follow directions nothing works if you don't work it. Keep us posted.

me too, I still feel like I am moving forward.

Keep that positive attitude stonerat :). I can see where the dr is coming from with wanting to let the clinic prescribe meds and such... but did he tell you anything to do for yourself in the meanwhile???

He said the usual, eat better, blah de blah, I am still making my mind up on him.
I haven't made my mind up about him. He is an abrasive personality.

He is just a man

Doctors are not gods.

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Hi stonerat, sounds like you are doing everything you can right now.

A wise person (Gypsy tears) told me in my first week when I was beating my self up and feeling so bad to take a break, curl up in a blanket and read a good book or watch a movie. She was right!'

Pat yourself on the back for all you are doing for you right now!!!!!!!!

Heres a picture just for you.

snowy moutains.
 

I forgot you like snow!

Thanks Hope, for the pics and the wise words :)
I am still fighting and that is what matters now. It is still early days and I have organised some help.
Curling up in a blanket sounds great, I think I deserve it :)

Just hang in there stonerat, the more time you have under your belt the easier it will get. There will be times though when it will seem like the first day and you will have a fight on your hands, pray, call a friend, find something that needs to be done and do it! Or of course you can snuggle up in a blanket. The bad days get further and further apart with time if you are working on your self and not simply not drinking. Not drinking will keep you sober, it is but a beginning, becoming a better happier person is the key to long term sobriety, the happier you are and the better person you fell you are the less likely it will be of you picking up when times are bad because you have far more to lose then just your sobriety, even though your sobriety must always be your number one priority, because if you lose that you lose every single thing you have gained.

You do deserve it! Yes a nice blanket, some :herewego and a good funny movie, RV was hilarious with Robin Williams.
Stay strong hugs your way, Hope3.

I love comedies, I don't watch TV but I do download funny films and TV shows and funny or lighthearted audio-books to listen to in bed. I have just discovered John Stewart and his 'global' show, I am glad you 'yanks' have at least one voice that isn't owned by Rupert Murdoch. ;)

Very true Taz. :)

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Hey Stone,
I was disappointed to read you had to wait and there was no med's yadda yadda. As an alcoholic, I guess I still want everything to happen RFN!!!...for me...but for you too now (that's the difference ; ) lol. You are courageous and spiritual Stone...that'll keep ya until ya get to detox (and of course, all of us at SR ; )
Tracey

Hi Tracey, I like things to happen immediately myself, but I can wait a bit longer fo this, I just hope it isn't too long.
I will just have to deal with it, I feel more healthy already after a week with no binges. :)