10 years is not what I want to hear either (I read that on the PAW site too). I was doing much better last summer than I am this summer, and this past winter SUCKED! where the winter before I was doing half way decent.
I hate the word "addiction". Not upset that you are using it mind you, it is a reality and I accept this, but I have always associated that word with something you crave psychologically. I never craved the tranqs, or anything else for that matter (cept sex maybe), at least not in the ol jonsin' aspect. I actually hated them after while, but needed them to stay stable, so in that aspect I guess the word fits, just don't like it. I have always used the word Dependant, (like there is a difference, right?).
Oh well, time to wake up and smell the coffee I guess, (pun intended). Just wish these mornings would clear up, (he says at near 2pm
), and I could concentrate and function better. Never did I ever dream I would wish for how I felt a year ago.