I don't go on a regular bases because I don't like going thru the doors alone. I don't like people looking or stairing (SP?)at me. I get anxious, nervous and my heart beats fast. My hand shakes if i get coffee. I dont like sitting close to people I dont know. I hate it when it gets extremely quiet when waiting for someone to speak. I hate it when call on people to speak. And i know they will call me and im not ready to share. I dont know what to say. What i say wont make sense. U will notice my voice shaking. How embaressing. I hate having to walk in and think i wont be able to find a seat. Then i have to walk in front of everyone. I hate having to read because i dont read well or cant focus on the words in the book because im nervous.
I do find however as time goes on and with going to meetings on a regular bases all the above seem to lessen and im a little more comfortable being there.
thanks for letting me share.