Candy, don't give up. Keep trying. There is a saying that "It takes what it takes". For me it took a year of trying to do this on my own because I couldn't accept that I was powerless over it. Even after getting in AA it took a month of going to meetings and drinking less but still drinking.
The reason I don't give up on newcomers is because I've seen those who have tried and failed repeatedly all of the sudden GET IT! They figure it out, they get sober and they grow! Then they start giving it back. It is the coolest thing ever.
Plus by sharing with the newcomer I am allowed to remember where I came from and where I don't want to go back to. This is a WE thing. I get drunk but WE stay sober!
Hugs,
Kellye