Hi ****, sorry to hear your having a tough time at the moment, it will pass.
I struggle somdays aswell, its not so much a why me. Its more go away from me.Things do get easier. Keeping yourself busy during the day is a major thing, so your tierd at the end of the day, or have to be somewhere the next...!
Good Luck Honi and bare with it. Tomorrow is another day...!
hugs...x