Hey Kermit,
Have notice in a few post that you say a few things to yourself like "stupid or I'm stupidier that I thought" - just a suggestion for me in doing my 4th Step I learned that growing up in an alcoholic home those negative words were very harmful to me. I had continued to say those harmful words to me as an adult.
I called myself - fat, stupid, ugly, dumba**, idiot, on and on and on, no wonder I had such low self-esteem. So my sponsor suggested to try to not do this so much. To allow myself to be human. If I made a mistake, like forget to start the dishwasher, was I really a dumba**, or did I was I just human and make a mistake. If I got lost going somewhere, was I stupid or I was misinformed on directions. Being a little kinder with myself has been the best thing I could do for me.
It has also helped me be kinder with family, co-workers, and mankind. It makes me a better person.
So be more forgiving with your self.
Just my E, S & H,
Rita