The disease is trying to trick you man. Don't listen to it's empty whispers. My disease wants me to drink beer today too, and it's taking everything inside me to stop from giving in. The urge will go away. I just have to remember that that the battle for my soul is not over until I give up. When I stop fighting, then it gets bigger and bigger and finally it will win.
You are more powerful than this *******. FIGHT IT, FIGHT IT FIGHT IT FIGHT IT FIGHT IT FIGHT IT