How are you doing today 4Leaf?
Yes, it can take tremendous strength and courage to disengage when you're so enmeshed in a relationship. Stay strong, keep telling yourself what life can be like without this in it, and what it is like right now.
And know that you can have the kind of fulfilling relationship you want down the road with someone who can truly be there in an equal capacity for you. You don't have to settle for this.