Thank you so much. I did go over there with the purpose of ending it as clean and as pain free as possible. For reasons I can't even begin to talk about just yet, I hit basically rock bottom. I see what my life would be like with him, and that will never be the life I want. I know God never gives you something you can't handle, but I feel like I'm drowning. It's hard to breathe. I feel so alone. I'm trying to find the strength to turn my phone off tomorrow, because I know that's what I really need to do. I can't let him talk to me. If that happens, the pattern just continues and nothing changes. He doesn't want to change himself, and I refuse to lower my standards. As long as I don't talk to him, I won't get sucked back in. I'm going to need a lot of prayers tonight. Please pray for me.