I knew I was alcoholic long before I got sober. I exhausted religious, medical, and psychiatric means, and was still drunk and/or high. I couldn't stop on my own because the problem went far deeper for me than having issues with a substance in a bottle or a pill.
I use the twelve steps of recovery to (a) keep me from picking up again and (b) to help me live a life that I want to live, not blot out by drinking and getting high.
Need hotline numbers? Meeting lists? They're available, regardless of where you live.
Peace & Love,
Sugah