I echo the others who said that, basically, going to meetings is one thing - working the steps is quite another. Read the promises. The do come true, but only if WE DO THE WORK.
I also agree that outside help can really be beneficial.
What I know for sure is this - drinking will only make things worse. You know that and I know that and so do all the rest of us who have tried and failed that route.
Time for something different, hey?