CDr55
I am so sorry for your anguish. Can you please check out a therapist...?
If it were me, I would try OTHER aa meeting, you know why...I went through an incredibly hard time too...aa wasn't working for me (in that for me I know I was not working it) so dilly dallied, drank, etc etc and then tried a different meeting - found one eventually - and I swear, CDr it has saved life and I have a life beyond my wildest dreams....HOW>????? Through meetings, but MORE importantly, getting a sponsor and WORKING THE STEPS...it is life changing and that MIGHT just be what you need???? The steps!!!
Your LENGTH of sobriety is incredibly impressive and I hope you can be less hard on yourself...you are a special person, God loves you - YOU ARE WORTH IT!!!!!!!
God loves you - and he don't make junk, hey!
Please pm me any time whatsoever. I will keep you in my prayers tonight, CD
Much love
Cathy31
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