I happen to agree with michaelj. The problem is not that you're gay, you're depressed,that you haven't got a college degree, or that you're a Christian who's not sure about Christianity. You stated the problem yourself-that you are a self-centered high maintenance individual and that "AA has pointed that out." Well, it doesn't matter who or what pointed that out, it needed to be pointed out. Now what are YOU going to do about it. Michael said it, get off your butt and live. Stop thinking about yourself and find a way to live a useful life. But, if you want to stay mieserable, sit around and dwell on what you don't have and how miserable you are.