If you believe the lie that youre telling yourself,please know that the door is always open,and you are welcomed,back,with open hearts,.
Just my opinion,you say that people discounted your problems.If you were with folks who did this to you,then your need to find the right folks in program.Folks who can relate to you,who have been there,and are willing to share with you how they changed,through living in the 12 steps,of AA,program.Many folks,myself included,,have,mistakenly,taken,what folks say and do,in AA,as the program itself,only to find out its not.If you stick with folks who are actually following AA,and who are encouraging you read whats in the BB,and not putting their own spin on how it works,or how they think it works,you will find a big difference.Recovery no matter what program,is all about--changing--.Get into the root and causes of your fears,guilt and anger,with an understanding alcoholic.The BB says that we are to ==fit==ourselves to be of max service to others,Keep looking for these types of folks,they are there.
God Bless,,,