CDr55,
Drinking again isn't going to cure your problems, don't kid yourself that you will suddenly become the centre of attention with a drink in your hand. You're gay, so what? It's nobody's fault any more than it is someone's fault that I am a six foot tall bald white man.
We all have things imposed on us in life and there is jack$hit we can do about it except to live with it. I have in mind people born with cerebral palsy, debillitating disabilities, blindness, deafness and all the other misfortunes central to human life. Count yourself lucky. As you say you are a Christian, count yourself blessed that you have achiebved nine months sobriety and go out there and live a life. Get your degree, get a partner, get a job, get anything you want except drunk.
Michael