Wow - I feel that way all the time. Always happy, perky me. Stuffing my true feelings in the back of my mind, far, far away. I don't even know if I can ever find them again. I don't ever want to have anyone cater to my feelings I guess. If I told someone I felt bad or hurt or sad, I was used to nobody really caring. I was just caring for everyone else and forgetting about my feelings. Now my feelings come out all wrong or it seems at the wrong times. Or if I did feel bad or hurt, most of the time someone would just get mad at me for feeling that way. So, needless to say, I usually don't express them. I am probably going to "EXPLODE" one day. LOL Anyways, I know just how you feel. Lolobug3