Well, look at it like this. I stayed on drinking and using for nearly 30 yrs.
YOU have your whole life.
Yes, it's a change.
For me, AA saved my life.
I have tons of sober friends, and hang at sober events.
You will be happier in the long run.
CONGRATS on your courage!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hope you stick around, and get involved in some sort of formal program.
Tom