Originally Posted by Beachbabe
I went off SR trying to focuse on not being an addict and in the time away I deteriorated.
Beachbabe, the way I look at it I'm a mother, wife, friend, volunteer, addict. Yes, you are an addict, but you're many other things too and being an addict will never be the only thing you are.
And, it's true, that what you put out is what comes back to you. I couldn't understand why my friends used to treat me badly. They never really cared or showed me respect. Now I realize that it was me who didn't care about myself and didn't show respect to myself. Since I have changed, I have met the most awesome women.
I have no doubt that you are a sweet and generous person, but I believe that when you are an active addict you don't love, or even like yourself. I just think I couldn't have done the things to myself that I did, had I cared about myself. I think recovery and learning to like and love yourself go hand in hand and that's what you're doing now!