Originally Posted by Beachbabe
If you knew me you would understand what I've been through... without it I wouldnt be here today and I certainly wouldnt be clean.
In a lot of ways we do know you, hon'. So many of us have been through the same sort of misery, the same cocky facade hiding all the true pain. That's why we try to understand and be patient with newcomers. It truly is so very hard in the beginning.
Originally Posted by Beachbabe
It scares me because when I begin to sob I start to feel like Im going to snap and go crazy... it sounds stupid but to me its a true fear.
I STILL have that fear sometimes. Like, if I let myself start crying I am never going to be able to stop. Of course, those feelings were much more intense in the first year than they are now. I have learned that sometimes I just have to let the crying happen. I usually feel better after.
I am really glad you posted and so appreciate your honesty. Keep hanging in there, honey. And we are here for you anytime--all you have to do is ask!!