Beachbabe,
I know how you feel with your emotions being so powerful right now. But, I think it's just because you medicated them away for so long. You have to get used to dealing with your feelings. Just feel them, accept them, and then let them flow away. They are only feelings and they can't hurt you. And, crying is good, though I understand the fear that it brings. I think it's probably a fear of losing control. I was ultimate control-freak until I stopped drinking. I was terrified that if I didn't hold on to everything, then my world would spin apart. Of course, that wasn't true and I lifted such a weight from my shoulders.
Have you tried journalling? I resisted that for so long, though someone from SR told me I should. I didn't want to see the words in writing, really didn't. But when I finally began, out of desparation, to journal, the feelings that I wrote about, flew away.