I'm going to my first meeting thursday. I've been reading the courage to change book that i've had forever. I'm just so darn angry right now. He's where he should be and doing what he has to do and I'm left keeping the bills paid and the day to day running of the household together along with working on my recovery, all because of he's an addict. I know I can get past the anger because I have the desire to do so but it's so hard.