Welcome back Blizzard, Haven't we all heard that addicts lie, it is caused by the addiction. If I were doing something I felt was wrong, but couldn't stop, I bet I would lie too. Have you read all the suggested books, have you read lots of the posts on here?? There is a good post on what addicts or alcoholics do, I think it is on the Nar-Anon site. H ave you been attending Al-Anon??
How do we trust?? We are all different, some can forgive and trust again if the actions prove they have changed. Finding we have been lied to causes a terrible hurt. Read everything I believe that will help. Keep coming back. HUGS