((sunshine))
I agree with what gelfling has said. For me, 4 months down the road, I am so glad I went through with it (for the same reasons). I can tell you I felt exactly as you - try to believe that it may take a little while for the good of it all to sink in. Look, if it helps you get packin for now, no decision you make today is writ in stone. You seem to know in your heart that you have to go. Do what is best and right for you now and what is good for your life will come to you. Good luck and god bless.