Hi Jim , a belated welcome to SR
Huge congrats on your 4 days , I am glad you are feeling better.
I drank alcoholically for 37 years, and even tho I was a 'functioning" alkie , ie I did not loose my job, or much materially, i lost my dignity, self respect, and my family ( son and grandies) . My thinking was insane, which I only realised after I got sober LOL.
I have used AA as my method of recovery, and not only has it taught me how to stay stopped, but to live a happy sober life .
i now have 2 1/2 years sobriety, and life has changed so much for me, it is unrecognisable compared to my "old" life
I wish you well
HUGX
Lee