gotta find the incentive again
well, when I joined this forum in December, I was dead set on stopping drinking. I did make some progress with moderation, but moderation is not my goal.
things started looking up for me (better than they've looked in a long time). a couple of steady jobs, meeting new people etc.
so the part of me that wants to continue drinking is trying to convince the part that doesn't that drinking is okay. after all, life is going better for me.
but I know that at least a couple days each week are wasted because of my drinking. I usually don't crave alcohol lately, but I buy it anyway because the loneliness is so intense that I feel I can't take it. plus, I don't want to deal with the withdrawal (even though I got through it before).
those are just my thoughts.... no where else to share them at the moment.
wren