I was thinking about why I was hesitant to just pick up and go to a meeting and I recognized that there are a lot of reasons. A) I am dealing with alot of other issues right now so I have a lot on my plate. B) I know it is anonymous however I still worry about being recognized. C) I am hiding my participation on this board from my spouse and going to a meeting would be more difficult to hide. D) I am seeking all my alternatives to AA/NA because of my belief system. E) My participation in last night's online session was disheartening because I asked a question only be told that questions can be asked after the meeting so I am completely confused as to how someone is suppose to behave during these meetings. This is why I need some time to reflect on the information provided. I am only posting while working so it will take me some time to read through information without completely neglecting my responsibilities. Everyone is giving me much to think about, much to research, and I really appreciate it!