DriGuy - so true : Nothing wrong with constant turmoil in our lives. Actually your entire post ... spot on. Thank you.
Zencat- "This time perhaps your stoic determination to stay sober tempers your joy a tad" ... also spot on. Thank you
Zebra - thank you.
Thanks everyone - I think you get me.
I think I am a little in awe with the calm, the absence of chaos, and yes... also the lack of excitement.
My entire outlook has changed. I work freelance with hectic deadlines. Everyone who knows me knows I start at 3 or 4 in the mornings. That has changed. I start later and I do less. And it's okay.
I take long walks and do yoga every second day. I'm much more zen than I used to be. I don't wizz around, I amble around at a slower pace. And I want this longterm.
Thanks for hearing me out.