I totally get you Ayers and have at times felt the same. I do agree with GB that we all are going to have some good days and bad days and such is life. Right now I am having an overhaul in my personal life in that I am starting to do things that I didn't do for many years due to drinking. I just got back from an amazing trip. I have taken an interest in history, art, hobbies like playing guitar again, reactivating some old friendships from childhood/teenage/early years. I turn 53 next week and I am approaching 4 years sober.
I will tell you it continues to get better and the activities and ideas for the boredom will come as well. Thanks for your post and just start thinking about what your life would look like if it were exciting, fresh, and new----because, well, it is!!!