Hi all! Just wanted to pop in and say hi and see how everyone is doing.
I am doing well with the no contact. Had a bit of a slip. He found me one Snapchat and proceeded to message me. I couldn’t resist and engaged in the conversation (stupid me). Ultimately he was looking for money. His truck is being repossessed. Did the whole song and dance about how he misses me and what a mistake leaving was. I am proud to say that I did not lend him any money and of course I haven’t heard from him since. Predictable.
the backslide is no good for me. Every time I engage in any conversation with him I feel like my progress goes backward. It also really highlights the defect in me that I even feel sorry for him. I should be angry but instead I feel bad for him . Sometimes I feel like I have no self respect and I am pathetic. This guys is an a1 loser and yet part of me still yearns for him.
like wtf is wrong with me. I shake my head at my damn self.
anyways hope all you lovely people are well and enjoy the upcoming Easter weekend. Much love xoxo.