Thank you so much for checking in. It really is a roller coaster... One minute I'm ok, the next I'm a mess!
Had a tough morning to be honest, was in a bit of a daze thinking about stuff and couldn't pull myself out of it no matter how I tried.
He then rang me out of the blue and we had a chat about things. He was down, telling me he isn't ok, he'll never be better etc. It was a tough convo. But all it really did was reinforce what I already know - that we can never be together. He'll be drinking himself into oblivion this evening. And that isn't my problem anymore. As sad as it is for him.
He gets defensive whenever I try to put my point of view across about something, he never seems to be able to see things from my (or anyone else's?) point of view. Almost made me start to question myself and apologise for pissing him off! He did that a few times in the relationship actually.
I still want to hear from him though 😭