V - I'm so glad you decided to post.
I drank 30 years. Knowing I was no longer alone is what helped me be honest about my drinking, & I finally quit for good.
I agree that it was no longer fun & relaxing - but for some reason I kept trying to find that old euphoria. It was never coming back. No more experimenting with social drinking for me - I know I'd put myself in danger, & reckless behavior would begin. I'd never live through it.
Happy you wanted to have this discussion. We are with you.