I could not stay clean and sober until I fully committed to the recovery program of Alcoholics Anonymous. As AA's basic text, the Big Book, says: "Rarely have we seen a person fail who has thoroughly followed our path. Those who do not recover are people who cannot or will not completely give themselves to this simple program, usually men and women who are constitutionally incapable of being honest with themselves." Feel free to PM me if you want to chat more about that.