I was able to get up after being couch bound for the past couple days Can't let anxiety keep in like that. So I shook my head while making sound effects with my cheeks haha got up and took a good shower, that in itself improved my mood significantly. Then got out of the house and took my daughter to go eat something. That actually felt good to me. I'm so thankfull to have her.
I just can't drink again. That's a decision that I'm making. None of this I'm-gonna-try-weekends-again nonsense. No way. No!
I think I liked the place where I was at before so much better. Waking up having my coffee every morning(well a few through out the day)and my time with family and friends. I actually enjoyed this and all without drinking. I don't need alcohol I'm life. I could actually find happiness if I really want to. Alcohol was getting to take that away from me. I can't allow that.
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