I have to beg for him to send me maybe $40. He sent me $40 last month. I'm going to go to child support, he has 2 kids from a previous marriage he hasn't seen them since he lost control. And owes close to if not more $30,000 I've seen the letters... I could put him on it, he won't pay it though. He won't get a normal job. Only working for cash so it can benefit him and his needs the most. I've been trying to stay busy and focus on the kids. Been so tired but really focused and have been tackling the house cleaning and organizing one room at a time to prepare for the new born. I was going through the garage when I found another one of his stashes left behind. In a box under a bag of clothes that would be going to this baby now that was from our now 1 year old. And I just broke down again. I have found things like this so many times, self made pipes, empty bags so many lighters. Years. Seeing it near the kids stuff always breaks me.