SnoozyQ, thank you . It's so good to know I'm not alone. My son's daughter is almost 1 and I've never seen her. I hope to, and I'm trying to heal the rift, but can't say whether it will happen. I drank, I didn't think it made any difference between him and me, and now he doesn't see me.
You've opened the door for lots of those of us in similar situations to join you in telling the newbies -- quit drinking now! You will never regret it.