Originally Posted by
Just4me1990 
So nothing matters to him? I have started therapy, and she tried to explain that he runs from accountability and from facing what he has done. That he has disconnected with everything. And I can't understand. How can you disconnect from your children? From your unborn child? Did he ever love us at all?
It's hard to say what matters to him, I would say drugs probably matter to him.
It's kind of impossible, or difficult at least sometimes, to wrap your head around how an addict thinks. Drugs change the brain and the chemistry of the brain. So when you say:
I can't understand. How can you disconnect from your children
You can't because you are not him, you are not an active addict and you think differently. You can't apply your values, logic or thinking to him.
Did he ever love you at all? I'm sure he probably loved you to the best of his ability at any given time. That may not be what you think love is, but for him, it may be all he was capable of.