Hey Just4me
Yes, he left a long time ago, please do not be too hard on yourself sticking around and trying to make things work, most of us on here have done that. If you can read co-dependent no more by melody beattie, it might help resonate or shed some light on why you did stick around so long
Also, someone physically or mentally abusing you is when you need to leave, that will never change, they promise but it will repeat. I was that woman. Please keep yourself and your children safe.
we understand here, its hard coming around to the realization but you needed to.
B x