It’s just so disappointing to watch someone who you thought was great turn to ****. Maybe he was always **** and I didn’t see it. I am just reeling at the loss at this point. And confused about the quick discard. I mean if I am being honest in addition to this man being a drug user he was emotionally abusive as well. I couldn’t talk to men or have social media or wear certain clothes. He will do all this to her as well. Even though I know all this logically my pain is still there and I still feel like not enough. I wanted him to be a better man and father and he just isn’t and won’t be. We obviously don’t even share the same values. I am sad. He was also going to run me into the ground financially - I couldn’t count him, he had no interest in being a family man or helping me run the household.