My alcoholic mind was the biggest challenge. I was not equipped with any effective mental defence against the fatal first drink and drank without thought. It was about at drink number three that I realised I had started again, then the craving would kick in.
I seemed to get some measure of a defence when I began exploring AA.
no one in their right mind would offer me a drink if they knew what I was like. But down the track “I’m on medication” worked quite well, or “ it doesn’t agree with me” or “I’ve become allergic to alcohol” were all good. Now I just say I no longer drink as a drank my entire life’s share by the age of 22.