Moderation is a a way which the addiction in us paints an illusion so we can continue feeding it. Even if I could, it was lot of hard work with negligible rewards.
One day I deeply felt enough was enough, tired of being sick and tired, and decided to get back my life on the correct path. That day the feeling was the deepest and most heartfelt in 16 years - I clearly realized there were two people in me and I had to get rid of the bad one.
Are you there yet? Do you really want it? Or are you ok to go further deeper into the misery pit? Think about it and if yes, stay sober today.