Originally Posted by
Hatguysgirl 
It blows my mind that someone would choose alcohol, pot and porn, over their family. It's hard to remember on those days that he isn't doing this to us, he's just doing it.
It doesn't help that the 4 year old misses him terribly. She's been waking in the night crying for him. Lately too when she gets in trouble she immediately starts crying for him.
I know that this too shall pass. It's truly sunk in for me that I haven't lost anything. I have full custody of the kids, I'm getting my house back in order, with child support I'm financially ahead, I have peace and calm (as much as possible with small kids.) Life is great. But I still miss my idiot husband.
@Hatguysgirl
That’s exactly how I feel. It’s so good to know I’m not alone in this. Thank you for posting how you feel. It’s crazy that it’s the same for me.
my 3 used old is messed up from him not coming and visiting. And he gets angry at me that she doesn’t want to go.
im still processing everything and it hurts but I know him being gone it’s for better. But still it’s hard as I tell myself everyday how could he choose girl he knew for 8 days in rehab over his family of 9 years. That’s the hard part for me.