Thank you, guys. I appreciate it.
I had a tough afternoon today. Tried to explain my feelings to my partner and ended up crying in public. It was as if I had an angel on one shoulder and a devil on the other, and I felt so torn. I knew rationally that drinking was a terrible idea, but my body didn't agree. Thankfully my mind won the fight and I went home and watched heaps of #sobermotivation videos. Now I am curled up on the couch with my partner eating nachos and watching MasterChef Australia, and I am calm and confident. So happy that I didn't cave!