David,
Do you have a counselor? I assume you are on medications for your autistic tendencies? It sounds like you need to speak with your doctor for an adjustment. It also seems like you're going down the rabbit hole of addiction again? Whether it be vaping, cigarettes, booze or weed and maybe any one of these have not only become an addiction, but an obsession? Please call your doctor and get in asap. You have a lot going on.