Beautifully put.
I was initially so overwhelmed by the NEVER AGAIN that I spun around in circles trying to concoct an elaborate plan of deception, hard work, and apparent earnestness that would allow me access (only very occasionally) to my chemical of choice.
So. Exhausting.
And ineffective.
It was much easier and softer for me to admit my true flaws and honestly try to correct what I could. It is much easier NOT to drink.