Overforty,
I hope you chose NOT to drink.
It is a choice, and lots of effort, to go and get alcohol and pour it down our throats.
No one ever just “slips”.
Best thing to do, is get a different plan.
Mine is never drink now, It’s easier for me than saying I won’t for a week, a month, 90 days, or six months, because it’s always now.
If I knew I had 10,687, 993 breaths left to breathe, it would not only be overwhelming, but anxiety producing as well, because, well, gee, what comes after that?
I am just living each day the way I perceive the great spirit would like me to, with all my feelings intact and not numbed out.
Our brains are resilient, and they heal, miraculously, after about 60 months of sobriety, and get exponentially better after a year.
I confused abstinence with CONTROL at 14 months sober in 2019. I do regret that, but it was a mistake I guess I needed to make.
No guarantees that 26 months of absolute hell later, that I’d be able to give it another go.
I did, and I’m never going back.
Big hugs
♥️🤓