Sending you hugs as well. I found personally that my job was WAY TOO STRESSFUL after I got sober, and I realized I was putting myself through the murk unreasonably. I think society demand way way way too much of us and it makes us get this do or die mentality which is ridiculous when we only have so much time on this rock. But changing jobs and career is way easier said then done. Can you identify what at work is the most anxiefy inducing? If you cant change jobs right now can you set some stricter boundaries. Your employer is very lucky to have you and have the best version of you, and if that means they get to hear no every once in a while, they are still winning!