I don't think I really wanted to stop till today, since I relapsed I'm taking it all lot more seriously now. I never want to do this again which I've unfortunately said before. I believe I will never do this again. I also see that I need hope. I'm terrified today that people won't understand is the time they tier of me and my relapsing. a huge lesson I've learned is if relapse getting sober really hard and, you are probably fall down a bunch of times before get up again. getting sober again isn't simple. I can do it though I don't to feel this way ever again.
David