Thanks DriGuy, I'm not free from self pity either, and really appreciate your post.
I can become so easily triggered out of this stuff DriGuy, and I know you're a good Guy.
So often people blame the victim. And i don't mean you, DriGuy.
"You shouldn't have worn a mini skirt; your lipstick was too red", and so on and so forth. I was child for goodness sake. And as Zen said, eventually I internalised it; and really it
was my fault. Enter alcohol, and the wild child that became, me. Crazy Drunk.
But now there is a new me, trying to utilise the strategies that Zen has so eloquently put, and onwards I push, with all of us here.
And that includes you DriGuy. Thanks.